Im 14 yrs old and all i ever wanted is to be accepted by my dad. He tells me to my face that my 12 yr old brother, Lewis, is his favorite son. Yeah it hurts for your dad to say that. I wanted a dad that i can talk to instead of hide things from him and stay in a dark dark closet my whole life. Thats why my dad will probly never know or i will never come out to him fully. i don't really know what will happen. I over herd him talking to my stepmom that if i were ever gay he would disown me and s@*! like that. I want to comfront him about it but i know that he would take it the wron way and probly hit me. Its like he hasn't before. I'm scared of my dad but, I love him. He is my dad you only get one. I have been living with my mom ever since they split. I know it hurt him to see that his oldest son chose his mom over his dad. I know I made the right chose because my brother came back to my mom after living with my dad for almost a year. I still talk to him and see him but still that saying rings in my head everytime I see him. " disown him, disown him." Oh well I guess my dad just doesn't understand that i can make my own desicions and what i chose in life he should support it instead of reject it. I hope one of these days he will undeerdstand nad he will support me, like my mom does.